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The following blog is the sixth part to Trisha H’s journey to motherhood – but with a twist. We feature Avi, Trisha’s husband, in commemoration of Father’s Day. The words are all his own.
Trisha’s Husband’s Journey: Reflections and Advice to Other Partners
Words can’t describe the way I felt when Trisha called to say – “WE’RE PREGNANT!!” I had wanted to hear these words for more than four years while we were trying to have a baby. Not just because I was ready to be a father, but because I knew it was so important for Trisha. She wanted nothing more than to grow our family and be the best wife and mom for our family. And, I have to tell you, she is killing it. She is the absolute best!
As Father’s Day approaches, I reflect back on last year. It was during Father’s Day weekend 2015 when we had our transfer. I can remember when it was taking place, I looked at Trisha and then up at God and said in a silent prayer, “Please let this be the one. Amen.” Afterwards, as we sat in IHOP, watching the other fathers celebrate the day, I only hoped that for Father’s Day 2016, I’d be right along with them… and I am. I am a proud dad of the most special little boy!!
Our son is only a few months old and doesn’t understand what we’re celebrating today. But, I know. And I couldn’t be happier. Finally, I get to enjoy this day – starting today and for the rest of our lives – eating pancakes alongside the other dads and sons.
You know what’s even more exciting? Thinking about the years ahead when we finish the day off on a father-son boating, fishing, and hiking trip. Just us guys, enjoying ourselves as we get dirty and eat lots of junk food that’s not approved by mom HAHAHA!! I can’t wait!
For all of you on the dad-to-be journey, I wish you all the luck in the world. I know the road isn’t easy, but hang in there; especially for your wife or partner’s sake. If you’re anything like me, you almost feel powerless; you wish you can take away the tears and hurt and pain but can’t.
As men, we want to fix everything, but with infertility, you’re limited on what you can do. To be honest, patience is your best tool. Always remember you’re in this ‘fight’ together. You should allow this time to bring the two of you closer by talking about the process and sharing in the decision-making that’s best for your family. Do not ever say – “It’s whatever you want.” Have an opinion and be her comfort. Most importantly, never let her feel like this is her fault.
What worked well for Trisha and me was finding a hobby the two of us enjoyed together. We would hike a few days out of the month; it was great. She also started “collecting” puppies and, as much as I didn’t want us to have any dogs, it was what made her happy and helped with the “void” – so puppies we got. As a matter of fact, we now have three of them. And, to be honest, the dogs brought each of us comfort during our struggle, and I’m thankful for each them.
Other advice I can give… attend as many, if not every, appointment you can with your wife or partner. When she cries, let her – and don’t ever say “it will be okay” because that’s not what she wants to hear right now. She hears that enough from people outside of the home. From you, she needs to hear that together the two of you will get through the struggle, and whatever is in store for your future, you will accept and accept together. Remind her you didn’t marry her for the children, although they will definitely be a blessing. Instead remind her you married her because you love her and want to spend the rest of your life with her. No matter what, you want to be there for her. Every. Step. Of. The. Way.
Again, from one father to one-to-be, best of luck to you. I’m telling you, you don’t know what smiling is until you see those eyes looking up at you for the first time. Being a father is amazing… it’s the greatest gift God (and the egg bank LOL) can give to a man. I love my son with all of my heart, and I will teach him how to love with all of his heart, too.
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